Dear diary,

            I'm listening to Heavenly as I'm writing this. It holds a special place in my heart, it's truly a special song. Okay, so I'm going back to university to continue my second semester in about 10 days. I honestly cannot wait to start learning and studying again. I'm grateful that I have found the piece in myself that wanted to study. 

            I am not a bright student when I was in high school, lower than the average I might say, it's that bad. I only started to shine when I first enrolled in university after two year of  "hiatus" so that means that I started university when i was 20 years old and that makes me the oldest in the class. Of course when you are older, people will assume that you are wiser except I don't think I am, maybe a little but not as wiser as they would think. Someone wiser doesn't need validation from others. A wiser person just do whatever they want and please.

            But I am not that someone. I still need validations from other people to make me feel somewhat worthy. That's a messed up thing to admit but it's the truth. I feel like most people my age are going through the same thing. It's a universal feeling. I got a Dean's List on my first semester and it's a big thing right? But, people around me just treat it like a small thing and now it makes me believe that it is a small thing but i know, deep down, my late father and my late aunt are very proud of me. I miss them so much, it's hard when you lost the people who truly believed in you. They would support me in everything that I do and now I just can love them from afar. Okay tears incomingg!!

Well with that being said, I hope I will keep writing and see ya soon. Bye.

yours truly,                                                                                                          roselleoivy 💘